In all honesty, I wasn't the biggest fan of Pirates of Penzance until around February. And then I didn't truly love it until after the first performance at the end of March. But now that it's all over, I miss it quite a lot. As with Les Mis, I learned a lot this during this musical, and I thought I'd put them below for all of you to see.
1. I am most definitely not a natural soprano.
I don't know what happened, but somehow when I switched schools I ended up in the soprano section of the choir. I spent the first semester of my Junior year feeling like I'd wandered into some mythical land that I'd only ever dreamed of, and then my second semester realizing that being a soprano is not what I was cut out for. I got used to it, until the beginning of this year when I was made a first soprano. When we had our choral festival, I started to seriously doubt my soprano abilities, and that feeling was only heightened during the rehearsals for this musical. I am not a natural soprano- in fact, I'm not sure I'm a soprano at all. I definitely miss being an alto, although getting the chance to see what being a soprano is like wasn't all that bad.
2. It isn't Gilbert & Sullivan's fault, but I just don't like Pirates of Penzance.
At least, I didn't like it at first. It's one of those musicals that can take you a while to get into, but once the first dress rehearsal came around, I found myself becoming rather defensive of it towards other cast members who were still less than thrilled. Sure, it's definitely a different music style than I'm used to, even in the genre of musicals, but once you start getting into it it's actually really fun. Parts of it are really funny, too, and when you're part of it, it's not hard to lose yourself to the character, which is one of my favorite feelings.
3. Having a positive attitude can truly make a huge difference.
It's a lot harder to do a musical you already don't like that much when you also have a negative attitude about it. I'll be honest, there are things I would have changed about this year's musical. But focusing on all that I would change didn't make those things better, it only made it harder for me to enjoy the parts I actually really liked. When I starting trying to have a positive attitude, I found that while the parts of me that wanted to change things didn't totally go away, I was still enjoying the whole experience a lot more.
4. It isn't often that you get a group of people who get along really well and all love what they're doing.
I think the biggest thing I learned is that Les Mis last year isn't the normal. It isn't necessarily an anomaly either, but it isn't what I'll always get. I won't always get a group of actors who love the show with all their hearts and also love each other. However, I also learned that even when everything isn't picture perfect, there are still wonderful parts of it. For instance, the other General's daughters and I got along really well, and I couldn't think of a better bunch to play my stage sisters. There are often groups within groups, and when you find the one that fits you the most, it can make everything else a lot better.
5. I'm not great at having eye liner applied to my eyes by someone else.
I guess I actually learned this last year on music tour when one of my friends tried to put eyeliner on me and I ended up seeing Into the Woods with one eye lined and the other with only mascara. Still, this knowledge was only reinforced during the first dress rehearsal when one of the girls put it on and another held my head in place. I did eventually learn that if I find a spot on the ceiling and stare at it with intensity I'm okay, but I didn't figure that out until the third (out of four) performance.
6. Being on stage is actually really meditative for me.
It's kind of hard to explain I guess, but being on stage is really calming. When I'm rehearsing or performing, I forget about everything else and focus on this one thing I need to be doing. Throughout the last four months, lots of stressful events have occurred. I've had bad days and weeks, and I've gotten frustrated with school more times than I can count. But when I'd go to a rehearsal, I'd feel all that frustration and anxiety slip away and I'd feel so much better afterward. The same goes for the performances, in fact that feeling was heightened during the four performances we had.
7. Despite what was difficult about this year, I wouldn't have chosen any other way to spend January-April.
This is still what I want to do. This is still the thing that makes me the happiest. There is no other way that I can imagine myself doing if given the opportunity. Yes, there was a moment in February where I seriously considered dropping out. I wasn't enjoying myself, and I didn't see the point anymore. But I knew that when the time came and I doing my mandatory part with the choir, I would regret not being on stage as part of the cast. And even during my uncertainty of whether or not I still wanted to do this, I never doubted the fact that this is what I want for life. There is no other career that brings this much joy from my spirit. There is no other future that I want. This is truly what I believe I was made to do. I've figured that out, and now it's just a matter of getting there.