Last year I was in Kung Fu... sort of. I went six times and two of those six times was spent learning how to fall correctly. While doing any form of martial arts (and a myriad of other things), you have to be able to fall correctly in order to be as safe as possible. Considering I've never been great at gymnastics and any kind of rolling in general, this was quite difficult for me. After multiple attempts at doing a roll fall thing we moved on to something else. This time I just had to fall straight back and hit my hands on the mat underneath me. This, I could do.
Or so I thought.
Apparently it's much harder than you'd think, and I spent the remaining half hour learning how to fall. Before I left, my instructor called me back and said, "You have to learn to fall before you can do anything else. Don't worry, you're doing fine."
Although I ended up not continuing with Kung Fu (not just because of the falling, I'm okay with that now), the phrase "you have to learn to fall before you can do anything else" has stayed with me. Throughout last year, I encountered problems. I took two English classes and practically drowned in essays. Chemistry was difficult. I went through a heartbreak. I lost motivation with this website. But I also did a lot of really cool things. I ran for SA. I was in Les Mis. I made friendships that I know will last for a long time. The beginning of the year was really rough. I didn't know anyone and had to crawl my way in. I fell, a lot. But then I got up, brushed myself off, and slowly but surely built a place for myself.
My first day of school is on Wednesday, and although I'm 90% over the nerves and I'm feeling pretty good about it, I know that this year is going to filled with many things, and failure is more than likely going to be one of them. I'm not perfect (a recovering perfectionist's least favorite sentence to say), and I know that this year while I'm trying new things and working hard I will run into some problems. I'm going to have bad days. I'm going to struggle with projects. I'm going to forget my lunch one day and spend time looking for enough quarters in my backpack. My locker is going to get messy- my life may get messy. But I'm going to have good days. I'm going to ace tests. I'm going to take care of myself. I'm going to read good books and write good posts and connect with good people. But I had to learn how to fall before I could soar.