The One Where I Burn Out: August 2019

Thursday, August 01st - Today was my first day off from my training, and it was spent in a little bit of a funk. This class is helping me learn so much, but it also means I’m processing tough information/emotions all the time. I think the biggest thing I’m working through right now is how to love people knowledgeably. I try my hardest to love people to the best of my ability, but I’m learning that the way I give love is not necessarily the way other people need to receive it. Loving people knowledgeably means loving them the way they need to be loved. For whatever reason, this is a hard lesson to learn. I’m definitely learning the value of self care, hence me doing a 5k on my stationary bike while watching Friends.

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Friday, August 02nd - This morning I finished this amazing book. It’s the only book I’ve finished this summer, though I’ve been flipping through some others. I highly, highly, highly recommend it to anyone who has been hurt by the church and wonders where to go from there. It’s just a really good book.

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Saturday, August 03rd - Today was really not a good one, so here’s a picture of the watermelon I cut up to take to my class potluck.

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Thursday, August 08th - Yesterday was my second to last day of the class I’m taking, and boy oh boy am I glad this part is almost over. The last two weeks have been some of the most emotionally draining weeks that I’ve ever experienced, and it’s nice to have a couple days off. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, though, I wrote a lot today (see the badly edited picture below- sorry, it was dark in the room), and drank a lot of tea. Self-care is important, friends. Please remember that.

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Sunday, August 11th - This is the face of a very happy college Sophomore who got all of her financial clearance and registration finalization stuff done a whole month and a half before school starts up again. It’s a good Sunday.

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Thursday, August 15th - Today was slower than others have been this week. I’m somehow avoiding a bug that’s been going around my household, and here’s hoping the avoidance continues. I don’t have much to say about today (I was literally making smalltalk with my journal this morning), but here’s a picture of some pretty sunflowers.

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Saturday, August 17th - Yeah, avoiding the bug didn’t go too well, and today I could be found in bed rewatching old episodes of Jane the Virgin even though I’ve seen them so many times already. I really hate being sick, and today wasn’t that much fun, but the time to rest was good nonetheless. Here’s hoping I feel a lot better tomorrow.

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Saturday, August 24th - It’s been a bad week. It’s been a hard month. I think that’s all for now.

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